question marks ?

what can you do if someone who break your heart
is the only one who can fix it ? THE ONLY ONE.

*sighs..

damn !
i sat back and ask myself.
"Am i only befriend with you when we were in a relationship?"
i am damn stressed out!
As i lost you as my " bestfriend " , i feel like losing everything!
i felt very very awkward to be friend with anyone else!
no one understand! no one !
i do have friends. but deep inside , no one can be as flawless as you
when it come to listening to me and cheer me up!
serious SHIT arrrr.......
i don't even know how to get to know new people. even girls.
i feel very awkward to talk to guys...
who should i blame that i became this way....
i can't chill.
i'm not happy mingle around with anyone....
i'm not happy to do anything...
i faked every of my smiles towards everybody!
i faked the happiness inside my heart..
sial la.
sumpah bodoh.
i dont even know if i want to feel it as an unfinished business or what?
it's hanging like hell la..
is this a karma to me?
the best thing is i just can say that,
this is a pengajaran dari Allah s.w.t yang Maha Kuasa.
i have to believe that everything happened for a reason.
Semoga ada hikmah disebalik apa yang terjadi ni, InsyaAllah .

Finally...

I really feel empty lately . It never felt like broke up, it felt like losing the half of myself.
i lost....
A shoulder to cry on.
A diary to write secrets.
A pair of ears to listen to my childish whine.
A punching bag to release tension.
A bunch of happiness.
Tons of entertainment , and laughter .
I peek in my social networking account.
I peek in my phone for almost 3 times per minute even it is not ringing at all.
So, i tell myself to stop. Enough.
Then,
I train myself to be tough n evil.
I close every inch of happiness to sneak in my heart.
I deny my eyes to cry.
I deny my heart to miss.
In fact, i live alone in a very spacious room now.
I feel really2 EMPTY.

Ya Allah, dekatkanlah hatiku padamu Ya Allah..
Amin..

Deactivate !

It was undeniable that facebook is such a great social networking !
It is much contradict with the era of friendster and myspace which only used by
teenagers and some adults. But facebook , come on ! who dont have it?
Even professional institutions crete one for them ! people do buissness , get along with old friends,
wedding invitations , What else...... it is also a place where two people who was in a relationship had to hide their relationship so that in won't spread out ! why ? i don't know. just to be humble kottt...
whatever . it is also turn to be a place where we seldom get misunderstading with our partner. so,be careful lovebirds ! what the hell man ? it happends to me. so,i'm currently deactivating my facebook account. coz ' it became an issue to fight with him xpasal2. xpe lah ! the end.

i hate durian. i can't stand the smell. other people would says mengada2 ar malay people xmakan durian, tp sumpah i mmg xsuke. 3days ago..out of nowhere i feel like tasting just a little bit of the king of fruit, durian. 3 hari jugakk la dok ajak kumbang pg bli dian 2.....mcm2 hal la pdahal ade je org jual durian depan uitm 2,xpe lah u....
in the end..i go find it myself with my friends.they enjoy it a lot. but i finish only 1 small piece of it with tears in heart... u never be by my side when i want you....thank you sygg . i can't felt anything much that sad..

MY CRYING BLANKET.

Lately ni i ada new activity....which is nangis dalam selimut tebal. Because i juz can't spit it out!
i can't tell other people about my feelings..but he's not there to listen.. if i tell it out, things will go round other way. misunderstandings. fed up la.. xmampu nk tangung alone,can't share with him, can't tell other people, can't post truth in blogs...hhere, i just feel like write it out since it just cannot come out from my mouth straight a way. i stuck here. i stress. i pissed off. but i love him. n most important , i'm writing while crying in my blanket.

kumbang!

L, its very obvious ok? its you! ONLY YOU!

away from him and i'm hurting!

12 signs, He’s the one

• 1. He understands.

• He always tries to see your side of things. This means that even if he’s seen you get upset or cry about something a hundred times before, he still tries to calm you down and makes you feel better.

• 2. He tells you.

• Oh those three special words, the words some men have major trouble saying. Well, if he says them often, count yourself lucky. Hearing him say “I love you,” and knowing he means every word, is proof that he’s one of a kind.

• 3. He shows you.

• We all know most men have trouble expressing their feelings with words. So, sometimes they use other forms of expression. Forms of expression include: taking you out for dinner when he thinks you need a break from cooking or understanding that you might need some time to yourself. While you may like to hear those sweet whispers of affection from him, it’s a fact that actions speak louder than words.

• 4. He listens to you.

• Is he’s genuinely interested in what you’re saying when you talk to him? Does he give you his undivided attention during your conversations, instead of having the television blaring in the background? It’s an important sign, if he shows he’s really concerned about your feelings, and especially what you have to say.

• 5. He’s happy around you.

• Smiles? Laughter? Excited to spend time with you and not his guy friends? Glad just to be with you? If he can’t get enough of you, it’s a sure sign that he’s really attracted and in love.

• 6. He compliments you.

• He notices when you change something about your appearance. He appreciates when you take the time to look great. When he looks you up and down admiringly with a little smile and tells you how beautiful you are, you know you matter.

• 7. He takes care of you.

• Is he your own personal guardian angel? Does he baby you when you’re sick and nurse you back to health? If the answer is ‘yes’, then it’s a pretty sure bet you’ve got a good thing going.

•

• 8. His friends and family like you.

• You can gauge how a man feels about you from the way his circle of friends and family treat you. If you are held in high regard, and they have embraced you like one of their own, it’s a fact he’s been telling them how happy he is to have you in his life.

• 9. He appreciates you.

• Telling you how proud he is of your achievements or praising you to his family and friends is a wonderful signal. It’s a sign he is in deep appreciation of who you are to him.

• 10. He asks for your opinion.

• He asks for your advice, considers it and may put it to good use. When important decisions are at stake concerning him, he doesn’t just go ahead and decide on his own what he thinks is right.

• 11. He’s interested in what you want too.

• Let’s say you’re both watching television and you want to watch Desperate Housewives while he’d like to catch 24. You know how men are when it comes to the remote control! If he lets you watch your show of choice, not in a grudging manner, but because he wants you to be happy, you’ve got a winner. Give him extra points if he actually sits through it with you!

• 12. He makes you feel special.

• Finally, is he the kind of guy who’s always trying to keep the romance alive? Bringing you flowers or breakfast in bed are both really wonderful ways to know he cares. If he’s always going out of his way to make you feel exceptional hold on tight, the man is a keeper.

to KUMBANG, i've checked it out for so many times! i guess u've done it all according to the signs up there! (except the no.8 that we both can't be sure yet,HAHAHA!)

Sumpah! I never thought to be like this....

Its different.....totally different!
and i don't even know who should be blamed in this matter!
but...i never regret.....
spending time with u is always a fairytale moment to me...
as u once admitted....
i felt miserable when i know that u are far from me....
i felt worst when u left me....
i felt like my heart like is fighting with myself when i had a fight with him....
sumpah that i really sayang him....really2!
we've done like everythng together....*except those privates la!
he always said that i'm brave... i'm daring... i'm relax.. i'm ego....
but did'nt he ever think that he is the reason i stand strongly????
like how? sometimes he thinks that i'm even stronger than him in anything...
in doing assignments..
in making decisions....
in solving problems..
in settling all tiny miny matters....
but u know what dear???
i have to be strong for u....
i know that u really need support in going through ur life here...
if anything that bother ur heart and mind....
please,let me know. we can sit and talk....and solve it.together.
we need eachother....
i'm always here for you..
and i really hope that you always there for me....always.forever.

The Tanglung Fiesta!!!

victory! victory! victory!
we never thought of winning! but,guess what?
we're on the first place baby!
the second and thirdplace goes to those graphic freaks!
we're the only IDEans who won!
awesome kan????
well,look at the conductor la wey....
super power kot!
hahhhahahahah...

Lama sungguh hari berlalu
Hening malam menyiksaku
Bila bersendirian sepi jadi pilu

Kau pergi aku yang hilang
Sedikit pun hidup tak senang
Langit cerah ku renung mendung kelabu

(korus)
Kerana diriku bukan aku
Tiap kali kau menjauh
Fikiran tak keruan
Jiwa rasa kekosongan
Diriku bukan aku
Tiap kali kau menjauh
Pulangkan dia ke pangkuanku

Yang digemar menjadi bosan
Sukarnya cari ketenteraman
Bila hati bersedih semuanya tak betul

Ku cuba setabah hati melupakan
Dirimu dari ingatan
Tapi semakin dicuba semakin rindu

its a KENDURI KENDARA !

Asemmbling the whole department of Industrial design students and lecturers of uitm Melaka,
there was a fantastic 'berbuka puasa' event last week. The whole MIDEC never had the chance to know each other yet since US ,the part 1 students came in to uitm melaka. Its a common event where sit along eating, and perform maghrib prayer lead by Rubaei, my classmate. Everyone obviously play their own role to crete joy and happy moment there. Without planned, the event became more wonderful than what we thought to be. The food was just ok. Not to say much coz' it is spicy and i can't really enjoy it but we still being grateful! Everyone was waiting for an event that we called INDUCTION! All the part 3s and 2s are introducing themself as usual...
But when it come to us, Part 1.... its FUN,TORTURING,HILARIOUS,DRAMATIC, n it became the most enjoyable yet memorable to all of us part 1..
Not only the seniors,but the lecturers are also play their part to create a scene at the moment.
Special thanks to them! they are all the most sporting lecturers i've ever met...
Camera flashes are everywhere.
A lots of funny pictures are captured.
Everyone shine themself.
Everyone indulged in the happy moment!
Everyone satisfied..

Teori Getah & Besi.

GETAH. BESI.

Getah itu zahirnya lembut,fleksible dan,tahan lasak.

Besi pula zahirnya keras,x fleksible dan tahan lasak.

2 kelainan dan 1 persamaan.

Getah tersebut mari diproses menjadi product yg berjenama CROCS dan

diwarnakan merah jambu. Imagine people,macam sweet2 je if girl pakai crocs 2 kan??

tp sorry la...xsesweet yg disangka! (tapi i cantik taw!)

Besi tersebut pula diproses halus menjadi braces atau nama melayunya "pendakap gigi",

huh..losernye! alatan tersebut dipasang di gigi2 yg buruk untuk diperbaiki! Beliau la!

beliau yg memakai besi tersebut! annoying dan kuat membebel! Actually i xfaham.....

bukankah besi 2 berat??? sangkut kt gigi pulak 2...2 pn beliau larat nk membebel bnyk2!

Eh,xpenat ke hah?? sengal~

Alkisah,si besi itu pernah memutuskan tali crocs ini.....

BENGANG siall....

die ingt aku beli kt bundle ke bhai????

F**k u!

jd..disini kte sebagai manusia harus sedar bahawa

teori besi dan getah ini sgatlah tepat dan benar!

BESI...bila panas,kena dekat GETAH....

GETAH akan cair dan rosak...

dan GETAH,bila sangkut kat BESI tajam...

GETAH akan putus.....

Jadi ape konklusinya disini????

BESI.....sila jauhi aku!

sebab aku la GETAH crocs yg kau dah putuskan 2!!!

Oh Tuhan...jauhkan BESI dari GETAH!!!!

Oh my God......life here is just fantastic yet HECTIC....
I was cramped with ASSignments man!
But its forever FUN! FUN! FUN!
Its hilarious!!

Honestly,
DADI 1A are damn enjoyable!
I enjoy befriend with them..
I enjoy learning with them..
I enjoy "kutoking"them....because most of them love to kutok me!
and I enjoy loving them....
everyone played their own role to bring happiness to the class...
EVERYONE......
EVERYONE......
EVERYONE......

is obviously make everyone happy....
the unity that is never announced but always visible among us..

so,watch out yaw!
we're DADI 1A!

Ya Allah,i wonder why we change in such way?

i was always think about it since i forgot when..
its damn weird man!
NOW... I'm super nice,i'm not selfish,i'm very tolerate,i'm forgiven,i socialise with almost all saint people,i speak nicely,i do my prayer,i'm interested in religeous guy and i didn't CURSE anyone anymore..but it was'nt who i am before...I do miss my old lifestyle in BSD before,but i know its not the best for me....VICE VERSA to a guy who was once mine.. He is so religous and saint once! but he changes a lot.....his words,his dressing,his social life,social interest,almost everything! He became who am i before. But why??? I know that he is so nothing to do with my life....and i shouldn't bother! n i don't bother either....its just that i suddenly feel like indulging my curiousness...
Hey! There's nothing to be proud of to be a not so good person la dude...... I dont know why ALLAH turns us in such way....I dont have to argue,I should obey! because Almighty ALLAH had set us the pros n cons in every of our decision! So,guys and girls....think!think!think! and decide wisely....Alhamdulillah, I love myself more now n my heart feels very clean and calm now....

segalanya mungkin berlaku di masa hadapan...
hanya masa menentukannya..
oh,tidak..mungkin bukan masa.
tp diri sendiri yang menentukan...
senang hati dengan kehidupan sekarang.
tiada duka.tiada kecewa.tiada rindu.
mengapa tidak mahu rindu?
rindu yang bisa dilepaskan,bahagia.
namun rindu yang tidak bisa dilepaskan,derita.
jadi..tak perlu semua tu.
jangan sampai rindu,terus bertemu!

mengapa?

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anda dilahirkan untuk disia-siakan oleh saya...
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